Have you ever felt like you're not being loved? It's too painful to bear that you just want to pack your things up and leave, go just anywhere your cold feet take you... Well, that's not an issue. I still have my things packed from my so-called travel yesterday, my birthday, from from the south to the north. I super hate the idea of leaving my close friends I have since I know I'll never find another 'them'.I had to gather my courage to keep myself from crying when I was still in the airport. But then, 36 hours after, here I am, pouring my heart to my blog, blabbing everything. My thoughts. My endeavour. Everything. Haven't thought of of backing out yesterday but now, I feel that I'll like it more if I stay in cebu. Life here is too complicated for me. It sucks. Everything around me sucks. Well at least for the meantime. I still have to look around and watch if something wonderful *hopefully* MIGHT happen. I hate things the way they are right now. I just finished crying minutes ago. Crap. Just when I thought I wouldn't break down.....